Sunday, April 28, 2013
The Dreaded Bathroom Visit
Disfellowshipped and Living My Dream: I Miss My Mother and Yeah, DDK Too!
Disfellowshipped and Living My Dream: I Miss My Mother and Yeah, DDK Too!: My mother and I were very close. And when I say VERY close, I mean just that. Typically when I would come home, she would be the first perso...
I Miss My Mother and Yeah, DDK Too!
My mother and I were very close. And when I say VERY close, I mean just that. Typically when I would come home, she would be the first person I looked for and I knew that if I just laid across her giant bed for a bit she would find me. I love my mom! She is and has always been my favorite person. But her allegiance to The Mud Puddle (the JW Organization) has had a significant and negative impact on our relationship. Its warm, hot and at times FREEZING. Last year she met a nice man. A man that treated her with respect and kindness, something that she was not accustomed to being married to my DDK. If you are unfamiliar with the DDK, please refer to an earlier series of blog posts.
Anyhow, during this brief time, I had my mother. Why? Because for that brief time she was a rebel, a happy rebel against the organization that sponsors headship over happiness often at the emotional expense of their women and wives. Anyhow, we are in this rebel plight together, albeit I had chosen mine, she came upon hers quite by accident. Alas, the thrill would not last long. As it turns out, this guy turned out to be like so many others, just looking for some on the side fun. Happily, my mother being this solid woman of faith and virtue was able to see through his shenannigans!
Which makes me wonder why during that brief time of freedom and bliss would she choose to go back to The Mud Puddle?
It's cold out.
Anyhow, during this brief time, I had my mother. Why? Because for that brief time she was a rebel, a happy rebel against the organization that sponsors headship over happiness often at the emotional expense of their women and wives. Anyhow, we are in this rebel plight together, albeit I had chosen mine, she came upon hers quite by accident. Alas, the thrill would not last long. As it turns out, this guy turned out to be like so many others, just looking for some on the side fun. Happily, my mother being this solid woman of faith and virtue was able to see through his shenannigans!
Which makes me wonder why during that brief time of freedom and bliss would she choose to go back to The Mud Puddle?
It's cold out.
Disfellowshipped and Living My Dream: Don't Get Stuck In The Mud
Disfellowshipped and Living My Dream: Don't Get Stuck In The Mud: Zombies! I love Zombie shows. Maybe its my knowledge of the ressurection that fuels my interest in Zombie stories. Anyhow, how does my love ...
Ex-Jehovahs Witness Explains: THe Weekly Family Study!
Disfellowshipped and Living My Dream: Ex-Jehovahs Witness - The science of knocking on d...
Disfellowshipped and Living My Dream: Ex-Jehovahs Witness - The science of knocking on d...: One of MANY stories I will share walking door to door in the ministry. This one in particular is about me working with the Circuot Oversee...
Monday, April 22, 2013
Ex-Jehovahs Witness - The science of knocking on doors
Daddy Dream Killer - Now
So DDK has a past and you may wonder the current condition and political stature of DDK present tense. Well DDK is still around, albeit stripped of all his pomp and swagger because the non-conformist family is no longer conforming. There were four of us non-conforming and hard-headed teenagers, all doing well in school, well-respected in our communities yet struggling to fit into a religious organization that demeans individualism.
So DDK is good. He and I have not spoken in the last two years so I have to get the news from my siblings. If he's good then Iam good. DDK may have buried my child hood dreams but I have new dreams and I am working them out.
Till next time. Nothing more to say on the DDK subject. I am buring this along with my past.
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Disfellowshipped and Living My Dream: Where It Goes From Here
Disfellowshipped and Living My Dream: Where It Goes From Here: Recently I have been spending time on YouTube and have been astounded at the number of people who are posting videos about their life time o...
Disfellowshipped and Living My Dream: Don't Get Stuck In The Mud
Disfellowshipped and Living My Dream: Don't Get Stuck In The Mud: Zombies! I love Zombie shows. Maybe its my knowledge of the ressurection that fuels my interest in Zombie stories. Anyhow, how does my love ...
Don't Get Stuck In The Mud
Zombies! I love Zombie shows. Maybe its my knowledge of the ressurection that fuels my interest in Zombie stories. Anyhow, how does my love of Zombie films relate to moving on in life after being disfellowshiped or leaving Jehovah's Witnesses behind?
Stuck in the mud. A recent Walking Dead show I watched had a scene where a zombie was stuck in the mud while trying to get at Carl for dinner. That zombie tried his best to get himself unstuck. That scene reminded me of myself for years trying to move on from the deep mud puddle that is being one of Jehovahs Witnesses. While stuck you can see so many opportunities in the world around you that you want to reach for, but FEAR or the mud puddle just keeps you there, always wanting, always desiring but not able to move from the mud puddle. Sometime it takes a little help. I was pushed out and after spending alot of time picking away the hardened mud, I am finally able to start reahing my goals.
Back to my zombie friend. He eventually was able to free himself and later was able to find his dinner. He was relentless. You too must be relentless. You must keep pushing to free yourself from the mud puddle of FEAR. Listen to the wise words of those around you. Just like an abusive relationship, you never can see the damage done to you until you are away from it. But trust me, others see it. These are your allies.
Trust them. Believe them. Remove the hardened mud and get a move on with your life.
Stuck in the mud. A recent Walking Dead show I watched had a scene where a zombie was stuck in the mud while trying to get at Carl for dinner. That zombie tried his best to get himself unstuck. That scene reminded me of myself for years trying to move on from the deep mud puddle that is being one of Jehovahs Witnesses. While stuck you can see so many opportunities in the world around you that you want to reach for, but FEAR or the mud puddle just keeps you there, always wanting, always desiring but not able to move from the mud puddle. Sometime it takes a little help. I was pushed out and after spending alot of time picking away the hardened mud, I am finally able to start reahing my goals.
Back to my zombie friend. He eventually was able to free himself and later was able to find his dinner. He was relentless. You too must be relentless. You must keep pushing to free yourself from the mud puddle of FEAR. Listen to the wise words of those around you. Just like an abusive relationship, you never can see the damage done to you until you are away from it. But trust me, others see it. These are your allies.
Trust them. Believe them. Remove the hardened mud and get a move on with your life.
Where It Goes From Here
Recently I have been spending time on YouTube and have been astounded at the number of people who are posting videos about their life time of experiences serving as one of Jehovah's Witnesses. Their stories are amazingly sad and there seems to be a total lack of direction and confusion as to what to do next. Now I am or have been one of those people, and my girlfriend always tells me to just move on. I do think that is over simplifying the problem. Being a JW for most, if not all has been a way of life. For many years, we were told to believe that any one that has an organization built by a man and which has built a following is a cult. Its okay to see things as they really are. Jehovah's Witnesses are a religious organization based on FEAR!
Fear is a paralyzing consequence that instills in you an inability to act and move forward based on some unseen or unreal consequence.
Put FEAR aside. For those brothers and sisters now disfellowshipped and faced with a choice please take a moment and stand outside the organizations and ask yourself some questions, youu know the questions you are not allowed to ask for FEAR or being disfellowshipped or MARKED as bad association?
Ask them now. Go to the library - talk to people outside of the kingdom hall. Here are a few steps I took that helped me make some new friends and get some healing oil on my head:
1. Go back to school and take classes. Make sure you take some classes about religious history.
2. On the nights you would normally go to the meetings, go to a local social event where you can meet new people, ideally NOT a bar.
3. Listen to positive reinforcements daily or weekly. Try Joel Osteen. He is serious motivation and is pisitive in his outlook on the future.
4. Join the local health club and take exercise classes. There you will meet new friends that wont judge you harshly because of your religious background.
Give yourself 3 to 6 months of this activity and DO NOT visit a Kingdom Hall at this time. Do not accept any literature but if you want to read a Bible, take a Bible history class and get a different perspective.
These are some tips I have. I know its hard. I am still struggling but it does get better. Stay tuned as I will have more later.
Fear is a paralyzing consequence that instills in you an inability to act and move forward based on some unseen or unreal consequence.
Put FEAR aside. For those brothers and sisters now disfellowshipped and faced with a choice please take a moment and stand outside the organizations and ask yourself some questions, youu know the questions you are not allowed to ask for FEAR or being disfellowshipped or MARKED as bad association?
Ask them now. Go to the library - talk to people outside of the kingdom hall. Here are a few steps I took that helped me make some new friends and get some healing oil on my head:
1. Go back to school and take classes. Make sure you take some classes about religious history.
2. On the nights you would normally go to the meetings, go to a local social event where you can meet new people, ideally NOT a bar.
3. Listen to positive reinforcements daily or weekly. Try Joel Osteen. He is serious motivation and is pisitive in his outlook on the future.
4. Join the local health club and take exercise classes. There you will meet new friends that wont judge you harshly because of your religious background.
Give yourself 3 to 6 months of this activity and DO NOT visit a Kingdom Hall at this time. Do not accept any literature but if you want to read a Bible, take a Bible history class and get a different perspective.
These are some tips I have. I know its hard. I am still struggling but it does get better. Stay tuned as I will have more later.
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